weird morning

hello. As I got up this morning it was a struggle. But I said I would go to the gym everyday, so I knew I needed to go.

As I do every Friday I jumped on the scales, fully bracing myself for a gain. I look down and see that the scale says I lost 2.6 pounds. I was floored. This can't be true!! NO WAY. So I decided to go back to bed. But I couldn't sleep, trying to figure it all out. I am STILL trying to figure it out. I think, and I will have to check, that I didn't save my weight loss from last week. My scale is digital and it keeps your info, your history for you. I tried scrolling through it all, figuring it out. The part that strikes me is that according to this, my blog, if I did indeed lost 2.6 pounds then my total weight lose would be over 16 pounds. But according to my scales I have lost a total of 14.8. So I really think I did not save my lose from last week which would mean I really lost one pound. WHEW! I don't know how. I almost wanted to gain, or at least stay the same. That way I would know I can't eat like I did and get away with it.

As I type this now I am kicking myself for not going to the gym. I may go later in the day. I was supposed to get a massage today but I can't find the gift certificate I had, so I need to cancel. By canceling same day I still have to pay half. So I am wrestling with weather or not I should just go and pay for it, or cancel. I just don't know. I am going to continue to look until the boys get on the bus.

Happy Friday -
til tomorrow -
Mummy Q.