day two

the alarm went off at 4:30 AM, and I SO wanted to roll over and go back to sleep. I had put to bed duty last night, and am dead tired today. But, off I went. Luckily the woman that opens the gym is there before 5:00 AM, so I can sneak in there and get started right away!

As I was doing some bicep curls (30 lbs - nothing too exciting!) I started thinking about goals. My immediate thought was "I want to lose 50 lbs by Christmas." If I did that, I would be at my wedding weight, ten years ago this spring. The more I thought about it, though, I realized that big, long term goals never work for me. I need small, bite size, baby step goals. So, my first goal goes something like this: on June 18th I leave for a cruise to celebrate my tenth wedding anniversary. I have been buying skirts (by my favorite label, Vineyard Vines!!) for over a year, on e-Bay. They only go to size 16, and that is what I have been getting. I now have three skirts and one dress. My goal is to be able to wear those clothes on the cruise. Currently I am a size 18 women. I hate just writing that down. But there it is, for the world to see. I am a size 18 W. For some brands I think I should even be a 20W, but I refuse to buy that size. I am now wearing size XXL shirts, which SUCKS!!! Why did I let myself get this way? But did, and I am trying to make that change (cue Michael Jackson's "Man in the Mirror")

My second goal is to fit into a pair of size 16 J Crew capri's by late August. Did I mention yet I am a teacher? I am a teacher, and we come back to school in late August. I would like to debut these pants, which have been in my closet for three years, maybe four, at our first faculty meeting. I long to be able to wear something from JCrew. You see, I discovered crewcuts, JCrew's kids line, for my boys, and I love to get their clothes there. I am always hitting the sales racks, finding great stuff for the boys, but never for me. The only thing I can fit into from JCrew are flip flops and socks!! And even the knee igh socks are a stretch for me (no pun intended). I would love to walk out of JCrew with something for the boys AND me!!

I am also trying to make daily goals - work out once daily, and eat well. The eating part is always challenging. I do so well all day, and then I get home and the hungry horrors hit! Today should be OK because I won't get home before dinner time, so there won't be much snacking. Also the late evening is challenging. My husband and I, in the past, would sit on the couch and munch on Cadbury mini-eggs. Last night, as I was waiting for study hall to finish, and my duty to begin, all I wanted were mini-eggs! Curse them! But I love them!

til tomorrow -
Mummy Q.