I didn't go...UGH!

Sunday morning - 6:03 AM - my husband wakes me up to tell me that we overslept, only to then realize on his own that it was Sunday, and we could sleep a little more.

I did lots of housework in the AM, then went to the dining hall for breakfast (did I mention we live and work at a boarding school?) It was my intention to go to the gym following breakfast. I was tired, but still wanted to go. Darling hubby talks me into not going. He makes a valid point - I have been five days in a row, and my body needs a rest. I am petrified not to go. You see, I feel like I don't have much willpower. I guess I have a lot of motivation, many reasons to get fit, but actually doing it is another issue. For example - for about two years now, I will start a "diet" on Monday, and by Wednesday I am done. I start out having a great breakfast, morning snack and lunch, and then once 4:30 PM hits, I am outta control!!! Also - I have a work-out room here at school. I have started a "workout routine" more times than I can count. Maybe I will do it three or four times, and then I am done.

So the fact that I have gone five days in a row, and am EAGER to go is exciting. This morning I felt that if I skipped today, I would find it easier to skip other days. Next weekend I can't go as much since I am on duty, and DQ is going out of town. So I am really nervous about making it through that.

That said, I did get some motivators for the upcoming week. I got a new water bottle. It is smaller, easier to use at the gym (picture using an elliptical machine while trying to get water out of the wide mouth of a Nalgene bottle. Water was all down my front!), has a straw, and is BPA free. I also got some new Luna Bars. I used to eat them all the time. There are so many new flavors now. The last thing I got were new headphones. Do you know how hard it is to find headphones that AREN'T ear buds? I ended up getting ear buds, only because I couldn't really find any others. If I am deaf by the time I am 50, I am blaming the ear buds!

I have eaten fairly well today. Trying to be very observant of the fact that I am not working out. Breakfast was half a belgium waffle with butter and syrup, some applesauce and the whote of a hard boiled egg. Lunch was half a PB&J sandwich. Afternoon snack was a Luna bar. We are going to the dining hall for dinner and I will enjoy a piece of Oreo cookie pie. Maybe I will share it with someone?

Another issue I am having is whether or not I want to weigh in tomorrow. I am really trying to focus more on my body and less than the scales. What I mean by that is I want to feel a change when I pull on clothes. The scale is a double edge sword for me. If I weigh in and have lost weight, in the past that has been an excuse for me to take a day off. The flip side is that if I haven't lost weight, I get down on myself very quickly, and cave - I give up. I don't want that to happen. I think I will weigh myself, but only with the expectation that I have lost three pounds. Anything else is bonus. Anything less and I will need counseling.

til tomorrow -
Mummy Q.